Ignorance was bliss..

Ignorance really was bliss.. I cant even think about anything else! Alls i want is to help her! Thing is she hasnt changed, shes still the same little girl we always had. Ive never ever questioned my motives so much when it comes to raising her. I really wish that certain someone would have just not said anything.. It was just much easier to just seek help on how to deal with her behavior than to wonder about everything she has ever done or will do that has autism tendencies.. I cant get a straight answer with the school system.. they want the wait and see approach which isnt what i want! I want results I want to know NOW! Im over filled with guilt that I never noticed sooner. I cant even sleep. It makes me on the verge of losing it when it hits me that she does something she has always done that is in the characteristics of Aspergers... I feel myself closing in on myself.. slowly shutting everyone out. Which is how i deal with stressful stuff. I just get so tired of defending my position as her mother! I do know best and as much as everyone says that i dont think they really honestly believe it! I think its one of those tactics people use to make you feel adequate and ok with whatever decision you make.. when really they dont really feel that way. Why do people have to lead you on that way? Then later on come out and tell you things they have noticed all along. UGH! I wish i could go back 2 weeks...